Wanderlust

wan·der·lust
ˈwändərˌləst/
noun
  1. a strong desire to travel.
    "a man consumed by wanderlust"


For as long as I can remember I have always wanted and loved travelling. I went on as many travel field trips in school as I could (not just because it got me out of school for a couple days, but because I got to go somewhere new). I know that on days like today when the sun is shining and it's lovely 80 degrees out, all i want to do is keep driving! I have no idea where I want to go, but I can promise that the list of places I don't want to go is far shorter.

I drove home today from my parents' house and my big sister's 30th birthday party and it was one of those days where I wanted to get off the highway and point the jeep west and just see where the road took me.

There are mamy reasons I didn't. For one, I need to work tomorrow and not showing up is usually frowned upon. Another good reason, I don't know what a trip like that would require financially and I haven't got much extra to splurge on an impromptu road trip.

However, the more I think about it and the more the wanderlust takes me over, the more I want to take the 10 days of paid vacation time I get at work for this year and take it all at once and go where ever the road leads me. 
Another dilemma with the randomness of what I want to do.... do I want to have company with me and someone to share all he experiences with, or do I want to go with just my dog? There are many pros and cons to both arguments.
For example, if I do it alone with my dog, there is no compromise to worry about or irritating small talk to try to keep up. There are no expectations from another person and I can be even more impulsive and when I feel like going and moving on I don't have to wait on another person.
On the other hand.... I hours in the car can be easily broken up with conversation. And it is great being able to share what you experience with another soul, especially someone who's soul shares the same hunger for experience as you.
Maybe this is the curse of a gypsy soul - my inability to remain still and always seeking a new adventure, a new experience, a new location. I am not complacent and I don't understand settling. Once I start to settle, I have to have a mildly drastic change in my life in order to feel like things are right. Maybe it's because I moved a lot as a kid. Maybe it' because I don't have any "lifelong" friends. Maybe it's because I know that no matter where I am physically, it's more important to find happiness above all else.

Maybe I'm just losing my mind.

Maybe I'm trying to run away.
... I don't believe that one though.

Maybe I'm just curious.

Maybe I just feel like i'm sheltered.... also unlikely

Maybe there is not answer or reason why.

Maybe I have a chemical imbalance in my brain or maybe I was dropped on my head as an infant.

Who really knows.

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