Stay Strong and Keep Moving!

“Change does not roll in on the wheels of inevitability, but comes through continuous struggle. And so we must straighten our backs and work for our freedom. A man can’t ride you unless your back is bent.”

-- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Yesterday was an exhausting and stressful day. It actually started the night before. After coming home that day and trying my damnedest to stay on track with my cleanse, I cam home to a million problems..... One dog got sick in the kitchen, the other one has hot spots from her new-ish flea collar, the cat peed on the clean laundry, the kitchen was a mess, the living room was an absolute disaster zone.. I did everything I could to keep from having a breakdown. So I went to bed a little early.... only to find that the dog threw up in the bed. Fortunately, my boyfriend came to my rescue and helped me change the sheets on the big queen sized mattress. 

You would think that that would be the end of that.... NOPE!! I was up almost every hour on the hour, the sick dog pooped in the bathroom... it was runny and disgusting... and by the time I cleaned that up I was pretty much awake. It was 3am.

I ended up going back up to bed anyway and just as i started falling asleep, the cat scratched at the door incessantly until I had to get up and let him back in. Then as I started to fall asleep again, the dogs started barking (I had let them out after the poop fiasco). This time my boyfriend got up and let them in.

Not an hour and a half later I had to get up for the day.

I showered in hopes of washing yesterday funk off, and for the most part I was fairly successful. I got up and woke Ciara up for school. I got her going and off to school. Then it was off to the home inspection for out (potential) new house. This was overwhelming.... especially for Brian. All he sees are the dollars we will have to spend, and while I'm seeing that too, I'm also looking at a house that has fantastic potential to make us some money! Yes there are things that we will need to fix immediately, the most important of which is replacing the roof (holy $$$$$), and then the outdated appliances. The laundry list is incredibly long for the things that need to be done, but Brian is incredibly handy and can do a vast majority of it. The one hang up is a potential electrical issue with the well pump. However, our realtor believes that they may be fixing that because "they will never be able to sell the house if it doesn't have running water".

I am hopeful and confident that this house is a great investment and that we can really turn it around and make it something truly beautiful.

After the inspection, things kind of meandered on as usual... just rainier and soggier. But still incredibly exhausting. 

Through all of this I did pretty ok on my cleanse, although yesterday I ended up having chipotle for lunch and missing breakfast entirely because of all the rushing. But no worries... it was mainly vegetables with some chicken.

At the end of it all, I'm still tired and just plain exhausted, but so incredibly thankful for everything in my life. My family, my friends, my support system, and everything I have.

“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.”

--Louise Erdrich